In just a few weeks, I will be giving birth to your baby sister. You will soon be an Ate and I, a mom of two. We’re about to experience a big change in our lives but of course, I don’t expect you to understand everything that’s happening. I don’t expect that you’ll know how to be a big sister right away just as much as I don’t expect to fully grasp what it’s like to have more than one child. We are both new at this, babe. And we will both learn to adapt.
I want you to know that just because I can’t carry you as much because I’ll be nursing your sister half the time, it doesn’t mean that I love you less. Just because you can’t sleep beside me at night, doesn’t mean I care less. My love for you will not change or decrease. In fact, I think God is making my heart bigger so I can love you both fully and equally, just like the way He loves us all one and the same!
Summer, you will always be my sunshine. No one else can make me smile and laugh the way you do! And I know I haven’t been perfect. I have made mistakes which I’m working hard to never repeat. I hope I do a better job of taking care of you both. I bet it won’t be easy. You’ll probably find me frazzled and cranky at times. I’ll probably get a little bit more forgetful. Our house will surely get messy more often (not that you care). Maybe you and I will have misunderstandings. Things will probably get a little crazy but no matter what happens, no matter how big and incomprehensible this change is, I promise that it will not tear us apart but bring us closer to each other.
I’m so excited for you to have a sister. I guess because it’s something I never had. And I thank God that I get to see you grow up to become an Ate. I know you can do it. You’ll do a great job. And at times when you find yourself not knowing how to deal with things, Papa and I will do our very best to help you.
I love you very very much, baby girl! Thank you for being such a sweet, strong and funny little girl. The past fourteen months have been amazing and I’m so thrilled to find out what greater things life has in store for us!
With all my heart,